Writing Down Your Soul

I’ve always felt I can express myself best on paper. I take time to process new information and I’ve learned that my head and my heart like to process together, which can feel very emotional and frustrating – my sweet spot is having a blank page I can let my inner world gush onto –…

Original Fear

I’ve been digging, digging so deep there is dirt in my hair and mud on my face. I’ve been digging through the soft and hard layers of myself looking for rock. I have anxiety so I asked my anxiety what I needed to do to make myself feel safe enough that my anxiety could stand…

My Toolbox // Things That Are Saving My Life Right Now.

At the end of her podcasts Jen Hatmaker likes to ask her guests ‘what is saving your life right now?’ My list of things that are saving my life right now is evolving, but at the moment these are the books, apps and practices that are working their magic in my life: Five Minutes of…

Learning What To Do When I Feel Everyone Is Disappointed With Me

It’s a stressful time – it’s been a stressful time for awhile now. It’s bordering on becoming a stressful life. The primary source of stress is work – is it always work? It’s always work for me. It’s rarely the work itself that stresses me out – it’s usually the people involved in the work…

How To Breathe

About six months ago I learnt I’d been breathing wrong – that the deep breathes I’d been taking to try to calm myself and my anxiety weren’t as effective as they could be. These moments make my head spin – I’ve been to so many counsellors, doctors and psychologists and not once did any of…

What Is Life In The Yellow?

I’m sure in time I’ll be able to explain exactly what Life In The Yellow is with an articulate handful of words but until that happens I’m going to inflict a very basic tree metaphor on you. I apologise in advance. Brace yourself…ok here we go… Think about a large tree, something like an old…

Buying Back My Own Soul

I’ve sold my soul to so many people, for so many things. Primary I’ve sold my soul to work…for a lot of empty promises and anxiety. I’ve sold my soul to people who don’t care about me, I’ve sold my soul to my addictions, I’ve sold my soul to obligations and lies, to imposter syndrome…

The Inconsequential

I feel that I spend most of my life living on the surface of a very deep ocean. My conversations and daily habits revolve around physical and temporary things. My life is so easily consumed by the unanswered email, the unwatched movie, the unexplored internet, the inconsequential. And that’s the trick life plays on us….

I Need To Stop Rescuing My Job

I like to wake up early each day so I can get the most out of my mornings. This morning I woke up at 5:50am with the sole purpose of strengthening my inner world. I’d planned to spend the morning journaling, deep breathing, stretching my body and refocusing my mind for the week. Instead I found…

The Ruins + The Garden

I can feel my perspective evolving…as though I am outside my own life and moving ever-so-slowly to a new window through which I can understand my current circumstances from an upside down angle. I can see it all, all the wounds and the quiet space where the war was lost all those years ago. I…