May 2020 – Life In The Yellow

What To Expect When You See A Psychologist For The First Time

What To Expect When You See A Psychologist For The First Time I’ve been seeing counsellors and psychologists one and off for over ten years now, and although the stigma of accessing mental health care has decreased dramatically, I think a lot of people are still scared, uncertain and unsure about going to a counsellor…

The Trauma Cleaner

The smell hits me before my eyes adjust to the dimly filtered light. The stench of piss, of musty damp and rotting food. There are floorboards beneath my feet, I can’t see them but I can hear their muffled creaks under the junk mail, scraps of paper and old wrappers that line the floor, clumped…

The Key

‘Do you think you’re a selfish person’ the counsellor asked me. To this day it’s one of the most profound moments of my life. The room fell silent for a long pause. I was searching, not for my answer but for the courage to give my own my answer. I wasn’t prepared for what I…

White Walls

I like to wake up just before the sun, open the curtains on our windows and watch the light brighten. Dawn is soft, a hazy gentle ‘hey….it’s morning’ – a little nudge followed by bird songs… My favourite place in the world is in my home when the sun climbs from dawn to day –…

Sinking Into Unedited Emotions

When I saw my doctor was calling me my first thought was it was a misdial, an administrative error. I was working so I declined the call. Within seconds my phone is vibrating again – now I’m nervous, and curious, but more nervous. Finding a quiet corner, I answer the call. It’s not a misdial….