Emotions Are Like The Weather

Outside of my anxiety I have natural, healthy, balanced emotional responses to life – I experience grief when people die, fear when the car behind me breaks too slowly, anger when I witness injustice, happiness in response to good news – my intuition is a guiding star – when I’m still I can tap into…

What To Expect When You See A Psychologist For The First Time

What To Expect When You See A Psychologist For The First Time I’ve been seeing counsellors and psychologists one and off for over ten years now, and although the stigma of accessing mental health care has decreased dramatically, I think a lot of people are still scared, uncertain and unsure about going to a counsellor…

The Trauma Cleaner

The smell hits me before my eyes adjust to the dimly filtered light. The stench of piss, of musty damp and rotting food. There are floorboards beneath my feet, I can’t see them but I can hear their muffled creaks under the junk mail, scraps of paper and old wrappers that line the floor, clumped…

Writing Down Your Soul

I’ve always felt I can express myself best on paper. I take time to process new information and I’ve learned that my head and my heart like to process together, which can feel very emotional and frustrating – my sweet spot is having a blank page I can let my inner world gush onto –…

My Toolbox // Things That Are Saving My Life Right Now.

At the end of her podcasts Jen Hatmaker likes to ask her guests ‘what is saving your life right now?’ My list of things that are saving my life right now is evolving, but at the moment these are the books, apps and practices that are working their magic in my life: Five Minutes of…

Learning What To Do When I Feel Everyone Is Disappointed With Me

It’s a stressful time – it’s been a stressful time for awhile now. It’s bordering on becoming a stressful life. The primary source of stress is work – is it always work? It’s always work for me. It’s rarely the work itself that stresses me out – it’s usually the people involved in the work…

How To Breathe

About six months ago I learnt I’d been breathing wrong – that the deep breathes I’d been taking to try to calm myself and my anxiety weren’t as effective as they could be. These moments make my head spin – I’ve been to so many counsellors, doctors and psychologists and not once did any of…

I Need To Stop Rescuing My Job

I like to wake up early each day so I can get the most out of my mornings. This morning I woke up at 5:50am with the sole purpose of strengthening my inner world. I’d planned to spend the morning journaling, deep breathing, stretching my body and refocusing my mind for the week. Instead I found…