The Difference Between Waiting and Wanting

I’m learning about the difference between waiting and wanting. I look at the shape of my life – Iook at what I have made room for and what I’ve denied space or capacity for. I’m realising in an effort to protect myself against the evils of hope I’ve also locked out the gifts that hope…

Love Is Love

I’ve learnt that I’m naturally a very loving, compassionate, gentle person who cares deeply about other people and will do anything to avoid conflict. I love people and naturally rush to embrace them. I will spend hours, days, weeks agonising over any decision I have to make that I know will bring pain or hurt…

What Is Life In The Yellow?

I’m sure in time I’ll be able to explain exactly what Life In The Yellow is with an articulate handful of words but until that happens I’m going to inflict a very basic tree metaphor on you. I apologise in advance. Brace yourself…ok here we go… Think about a large tree, something like an old…

The Inconsequential

I feel that I spend most of my life living on the surface of a very deep ocean. My conversations and daily habits revolve around physical and temporary things. My life is so easily consumed by the unanswered email, the unwatched movie, the unexplored internet, the inconsequential. And that’s the trick life plays on us….

The Ruins + The Garden

I can feel my perspective evolving…as though I am outside my own life and moving ever-so-slowly to a new window through which I can understand my current circumstances from an upside down angle. I can see it all, all the wounds and the quiet space where the war was lost all those years ago. I…

Life in The Black and Red

There’s this two dimensional approach to life that I’ve watched and I’ve fallen into and I’ve wanted to escape. The best way I can describe it is in accounting terms. In accounting when you’re in profit you’re ‘in the black’ and then you’re making a loss you’re ‘in the red’. Our lives become this two-step…